tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-12130342398132454562012-01-16T17:45:50.573-08:00bags of windbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.comBlogger4901100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-37535423298463626072012-01-16T17:45:00.000-08:002012-01-16T17:45:50.723-08:00photoa friend of ours who still lives in humboldt county sent us this recent clipping/photo from the newspaper.
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-83227785293732410002012-01-11T11:56:00.000-08:002012-01-11T14:35:54.527-08:00mri results phone call 1.10.11
typically it goes like this: each late november i email my doc (note: my neurosurgeon, not my gp. further note: this neurosurgeon is not the one who performed 2 surgeries in 2005 only the person who is assigned to shepherd my aftercare, scans and whatnots) and remind him that it's time for my annual mri to check on the status of the remaining brain tumor bit in my head. that bit was bbq'ed/bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-69242924220393211822012-01-06T13:59:00.000-08:002012-01-06T23:54:37.021-08:00annual scan 1.5.12woke at 640, in car by 7 headed to clackamas, to hospital where i had 1st MRI back in late 2004 that kicked off the whole enterprise. in to the hospital, checking in at one desk in semi-recently remodelled lobby (where i note a stack of those buzzing/flashing your-table-is-ready-now items sitting off to the side, presumably for those awaiting surgery or news of surgery) and then on to another bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-66670009642895161942012-01-03T16:36:00.000-08:002012-01-03T16:36:16.049-08:002012
a new year is always a symbolic thing. several big things coming this year already: milestone birthday (ugh), travel, directing a feature film and hopefully lots of joy and friendship filling in all the gaps. oh and the steady white-noise of self-correction and self-improvement be it in the physical, emotional, or spiritual realms. 2011 saw me posting much less on this blog, not for lack of bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-91513221512312980782011-11-17T09:13:00.001-08:002011-11-17T09:35:15.856-08:00letter to occupant
dear Occupier -
okay, so i may be outing myself as out-of-touch or crustily approaching my midlife point or encountering the new viewpoints that can't help but come along with a baby, and further my opinon may be influenced by the fact that the building i work in for my day job is directly across from where the occupy gaggle at chapman and lownsdale parks sat tarp-covered for several bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-17642591024661589202011-11-02T08:28:00.001-07:002011-11-02T08:29:37.598-07:00wednesday
i'm so glad
memphis minnebphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-17472923747728531402011-10-19T17:36:00.000-07:002011-10-19T17:36:12.577-07:00person of culturebphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-30542954573226987932011-10-19T07:16:00.000-07:002011-10-19T07:16:11.370-07:00hazard/s of dogbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-69595609294255515762011-09-24T19:44:00.000-07:002011-09-24T19:44:25.621-07:00500 postsi've had this blog about 5 yrs, here's post number 500, a photo that features a couple things that i've been working on lately, with a love-swollen heart
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-71287670141559145782011-09-19T18:35:00.000-07:002011-09-19T18:35:25.408-07:00desert
joshua tree np
october 2003bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-62158158472183301052011-09-18T13:53:00.000-07:002011-09-18T13:53:13.943-07:00blue sky
driving from marin to santa rosa
circa 2002bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-22801182421736696192011-09-16T13:42:00.001-07:002011-09-16T13:43:08.507-07:00honest man
19th Ave, San Francisco
circa 2000bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-76833542853931208852011-09-13T15:07:00.000-07:002011-09-13T15:07:56.485-07:00shrine
Fushimi-Inari, Kyoto Feb 2006bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-15397198523994139022011-09-12T12:20:00.000-07:002011-09-12T12:20:43.148-07:00mm/yosemitebphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-50795672711316069372011-09-09T18:22:00.000-07:002011-09-09T18:23:38.570-07:00there are birds,
en route to sf, ca
after leaving asland ore,
hrs earlier
dec 2010bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-37721629262194081922011-09-09T18:07:00.000-07:002011-09-16T13:44:14.391-07:00moving house
a r c a t a, c a
a u g u s t 2 0 0 8bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-23666352867977072742011-09-02T19:02:00.000-07:002011-09-02T19:02:40.222-07:00disturbing still
here's a image-grab still from the footage of The Big Black Dark, currently being edited.
cross-posted herebphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-90304756404540176232011-08-30T09:41:00.001-07:002011-08-30T09:41:35.797-07:00near yachats, ore
pbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-22407367915853135382011-08-23T13:07:00.000-07:002011-08-23T13:07:24.239-07:00train near multnomah fallsbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-50562903524097313402011-08-23T12:51:00.000-07:002011-08-23T12:51:50.667-07:00always danger
the other evening, home one day from hospital, our son slept in bassinet and i reached absently for a book of poetry from the shelf behind me. it was always danger by david hernandez. it's an outstanding book just in general, but at this intersection of fragility and robustness it resonated in unique and shimmering ways. highly recommended.bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-74127044207286094772011-07-10T16:53:00.000-07:002011-07-10T16:53:29.681-07:00lynch, davidsome excellent, raw non-epk behind-the-scenes stuff from mulholland drive
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-8426482528604814592011-07-05T09:29:00.000-07:002011-07-05T09:31:47.793-07:00wknd in thumbnail, independence day editionindeed indeed, i was granted a 4 day wknd from my job, got friday off but i feel compelled to back the narrative up to thursday when my recently-exposed cans of film arrived in seattle and we met sipes and R at dot's cafe in clinton, both of whom are from back-in-the-day collegiate memory-pools as well as present-day. R was here for just a night, en route to seattle for a wk long vacation. we bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-73897442822693184532011-06-27T15:21:00.000-07:002011-06-30T09:44:48.588-07:00the union of movie and babyso i just wrapped production on a short film last tuesday (you can track its current and future progress here should you have that inclination.) last wknd we shot in the basement of my current residence, a rental in SE portland. We dressed the basement to resemble a secretary's office and planned the shot - a simple dolly in as the secretary answers a phone call. since the dolly was an onset bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-73722494947105287712011-06-23T10:33:00.000-07:002011-06-23T10:55:54.493-07:00...the tick-tocking of the clock...
Time marching forward, a fixed point on the horizon, a line in the sand, a before/after blip on the space-time continuum, a freight-train (whose exact dimensions and impactful-flattening capacities are tbd) barrelling our way - all engendering some admixture of fear and excitement in (mostly) equal measure.
six point five tiny weeks. we have shower/party this wknd, a guest in town, then another bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-32228129440174832222011-06-08T12:09:00.000-07:002011-06-08T14:53:39.872-07:00call me
i can't tell you how much i am not a fan of cell-phones. i don't like to watch people 'interacting' w/ them on the bus or at a movie theater or at a restaurant. i count the times i've witnessed couples or families on separate cell-phone calls or texts or whatevers as among the best representation of the worst of modern life. i am aware this makes me look cranky and non-integrated. this is all bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-33897440264134962892011-05-31T18:25:00.001-07:002011-05-31T18:27:38.286-07:00i need medication i need medication by brian padian
as always, a work-in-progressbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-8776969958940340662011-05-31T11:54:00.000-07:002011-06-23T10:54:28.823-07:00wknd in thumbnailmy posting in this forum - as the faithful reader will note (hi mom!) - has been reduced to something less than intermitttent trickle, something less substantial than smoke-wisp and - as per usual - this is attributable to a variety of churn and chop in a multitude of oceans, if you'll allow the indulgent metaphoring, and i feel guilty and irresponsible but only up to a certain point. mm and i bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-48478829051940712462011-05-13T15:15:00.000-07:002011-05-13T15:15:09.401-07:00i'm so scared i'm so scared by brian padian
here's another onebphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-73352075809265053292011-04-27T11:59:00.001-07:002011-04-27T17:41:20.630-07:00"dead and gone" dead and gone by brian padian
apologies for the light posting lately. been busy counting down to early august, prepping new short film, travelling to SF, watching way too much netflix on demand etc. in lieu of actual blog post/s with actual intellectual content here's something i've been messing with on garageband, a song i've had kicking around for awhile.bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-92077024927105321712011-02-28T12:00:00.000-08:002011-02-28T12:36:31.925-08:00tiny holesfriday evening, just after work m and i meet a friend for a quick drink. on way home we decide to rent a movie and stop by our video store. inside the store, playing on ceiling-mounted television screen is a film i love, but one i haven't seen in probably a decade. it features casual displays of wanton interpersonal cruelty and one key scene displaying such plays as we are waiting in the bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-81708987890961519132011-02-23T10:56:00.000-08:002011-02-23T10:57:25.595-08:00changes, podcast, et ceteraafter a decade or so, spanning across two states and multiple residences, the death of two beloved animals, the acquisition of another, the hours of my daily life have changed. since 2001 i've worked 10am-7pm (note: and by worked i mean went to my day job. the distinction is important as relates to my sense of sanity and self-worth). As of a few weeks ago i am now in 8a-5pm land. I feel like bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-52759314230303937372011-02-11T18:46:00.000-08:002011-02-11T18:46:14.852-08:00podcast, yet cont'd
like the serial killer franchise that can't be stopped
you can find episode 4 of the last film i saw podcast
here
featuring special guest corrina repp
music by pete vaughn and
the same spate of insights longtime listeners have
come to expect.
buckle upbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-74343993946572756322011-01-28T15:00:00.000-08:002011-01-28T15:01:44.396-08:00two pictureseach worth one thousand words.
first: from gustave courbet: the sea
and then, edited to reflect/isolate the important data, my MRI report from Saturday, key word: unchanged
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-73102990348033741142011-01-25T15:58:00.000-08:002011-01-25T15:59:04.088-08:00intra-ocular magnification
Many things going on right now so i've been unable to properly assess (read: blog about) them all. Friday was MM's birthday, Saturday I had my annual follow-up MRI at the very hospital/waiting room that's mentioned at the start of M's essay the first week of after and then went home where i wrapped my latest short film my beer with bill some hours later. in addition i've started running again bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-15172770749540797152011-01-24T17:44:00.000-08:002011-01-24T17:44:08.667-08:00directors' roundtableif you have 70 minutes to burn you could do a lot worse than clicking
here
to see the annual hollywood reporter directors roundtable, which seems to pop up every awards season.
this one features lisa cholodenko, david o. russel, tom hooper, derek cianfrance, darren aronofsky, and peter weir.bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-23683810589470392842011-01-16T17:36:00.000-08:002011-01-16T17:36:21.880-08:00podcast, cont'depisode 2 of the podcast is up and running.
9 minutes of full-throated glory
you can find it herebphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-3005095669968152182011-01-10T09:46:00.000-08:002011-01-10T09:46:51.040-08:00podcast
first off, let me bid you a Happy New Year and wish you a glorious and bountiful 2011.
Now, should you be so inclined or should you be stuck somewhere with nine minutes to kill, let me direct you toward my first attempt at a podcast on movies, from one of my other blogs. featuring special guest margaret malone. you can find it here.
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-68118527445920590712010-12-30T17:27:00.000-08:002010-12-30T17:28:16.702-08:00end of year
posting has been slowed to a trickle of late. busy few weeks in a busy couple of months that involved m being gone for a month, us going to SF for xmas, etc. very good news on several fronts at once. more about all that in the coming weeks, but the short of it is that m and i each won a grant for our work (actually m won 2) and we hit a major stride with our memoir. i'll have to leave it there. bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-34865561368248093162010-12-04T15:16:00.000-08:002010-12-04T15:18:47.176-08:00self-limitation
"The tortoise got stuck as it tried to squeeze under a plywood partition; its shell, which it can't visualize, is too high, but it stubbornly works away, scrabbling with its claws in a futile attempt to move forward."
from Conquest of the Useless, Werner Herzogbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-51166860138745603762010-11-28T23:26:00.000-08:002010-11-28T23:26:37.537-08:00oregon coast, near lincoln citydrove out yesterday to see m. she was 6 days into her month-long residency and we assumed it would be better to see each other right at the beginning. suffice to say, it's spectacular where she is. epic. good things are coming.
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-40489094719421953352010-11-19T12:15:00.001-08:002010-11-19T12:17:17.802-08:00and so...rounding out the boston/radiation memory lane/s is this video of our time there and our leaving, posting today since 11/19/05 was the day we left boston, starting back across the country in a rental van, ending finally back in portland on a dark rainy night, the friday after thanksgiving.
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-71301664269134362272010-11-17T12:57:00.000-08:002010-11-17T13:04:12.915-08:00plansPosted Nov 17, 2005 6:31pm
Done! Done! Done! Done!
Done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done, done.
Also,
done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done done.
met w/ Dr. Liebsch to say adieu. He likes our chances and thusly, we think quite fondly of him.
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-41372519750540602072010-10-28T12:24:00.000-07:002010-10-28T12:26:06.672-07:00epic journey, thea week plus past Henry's death. it's still all around us but easing slightly, in particular when we're able to recall his amazing life and his badass character. his adventures were voluminous and tight-rope walker-like, fearless in the face of danger. there's the cystitis, the leap from a 2nd fl window in los angeles, the cat fights, the abcesses etc, but nothing more embodies his character than bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-45353078007351826912010-10-27T17:33:00.000-07:002010-10-27T17:33:57.842-07:00five yearsfive years ago at this moment, m and i lived in a hotel for 2.5 months in cambridge, mass so i could receive proton beam radiation on what remained of my brain tumor after two surgical resections. we continually find ourselves reminding ourselves of this experience, like a trip to a phantom universe we keep forgetting that we visited and one whose powers impact all subsequent memories, covering bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-72173751092890441872010-10-24T17:39:00.001-07:002010-10-24T17:39:46.778-07:00odettabphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-62715117547507169972010-10-19T11:29:00.000-07:002010-10-19T11:41:49.615-07:00beautiful and fleeting
forgot to add this moment: sitting on the curb Sunday night, crying over Henry's dead body, a black and white neighborhood cat materialized, approached us, mewing. Then moments later another neighborhood cat appeared, orange and puffy, coming from a different direction, both regarding Henry's body with an admixture of concern, curiousity and a seeming understanding that Henry was no more, and bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-28977773327728620112010-10-18T12:35:00.001-07:002010-10-18T12:35:48.790-07:00videobphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-8315154318068538082010-10-18T12:10:00.000-07:002010-10-19T11:33:03.068-07:00the last weekend of Henry 10.17.2010saturday, am we get up and make breakfast, sitting out side on the deck. you and strunk are standing on the table before we eat. you look like two little statues but then she hisses at you. when the food is on the table you attempt repeatedly to get jump up from a chair. you are extremely persistent and i swat you away multiple times w/ the paper. later m goes to laurelhurst park to meet friends bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-56336348045600686652010-10-18T07:58:00.000-07:002010-10-19T12:53:20.522-07:00Farewell Henry
Henry (aka Henry Malone-Padian, aka Hank, aka Handsome Hank)3.17.1996 - 10.17.2010godspeed good friend. you are sorely missed
Henry & Maxwell in Los Angeles
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-13325913057101583812010-10-07T17:04:00.000-07:002010-10-07T17:04:23.335-07:00"...this rich stone forest..."
watch this. then watch again.
from F for Fakebphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-19427559870872811862010-09-23T09:45:00.001-07:002010-09-23T09:50:21.930-07:00sunrise @ haleakala 9.16.2010bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-40960329688543418742010-09-23T09:02:00.000-07:002010-09-23T09:04:15.758-07:00in process Pema Chödrönbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-36864150804809582192010-09-22T09:05:00.000-07:002010-09-22T11:11:18.913-07:00maui
i'd like to say something here succinct and eloquent about
the importance of travel and the importance of vacation
and the distinction between the two and how we thought
this trip would be one but was really the other but i'm not sure i can. further
i'd like to delineate each day, hour, moment as a means
of capturing what happened, like a firefly in a jar, but what happened
is somewhat bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-57155802477731597502010-09-11T06:46:00.000-07:002010-09-11T06:50:15.698-07:00intersecting anniversaries
would like to say something eloquent here about time passage and demarcation but it is too early for insight so i'll just say this: just went to my 20th hs reunion. this coming week holds will be 10 yrs of marriage. also this next week will mark 5 years since we left for boston so i could get proton beam radiation on my brain tumor.
recently found some footage from that time and it us both us bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-53238023211660667152010-09-09T13:29:00.000-07:002010-09-09T15:01:03.782-07:00i hate you budgetOkay, so many years ago, for reasons to complex and intertwined to get into fully in this space i got into semi-severe credit card debt. (this is separate from the student loan debt that currently follows me through each decade like a spurned lover). The short version of the after-effects goes like this: enrolled in credit counseling, got on a payment plan, ripped up credit cards. This is all bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-18900112812330918062010-09-08T15:13:00.001-07:002010-09-08T15:13:44.103-07:00man/camerabphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-4291891746620398732010-08-31T17:26:00.000-07:002010-08-31T21:31:32.665-07:00atlanta, ghostsstepped into the hot air outside hartsfield and it was like stepping into a box of old photographs, molecularly-altering, the treetops and air somehow coded memory-wise, returning and transporting me. S. picked me up and we went to a bar and had some drinks and caught up. went to bed late. woke up late hungover. had lunch w/ R, a great conversation about life and station and purpose and the bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-47896059596892559142010-08-24T19:01:00.000-07:002010-08-24T19:40:50.401-07:00northern flickerso, weird story. about a year ago i wrote a post about how i heard a ruckus upstairs and it turns out a blue jay had somehow gotten stuck in our fireplace. you can re-read that here. this morning i was working on my website, northern flicker films, trying to get things in order b/c of the new short. it's been a good few weeks, finally seeing this film to completion and having a good public bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-13553302674715401532010-08-20T11:10:00.000-07:002010-08-20T11:28:00.244-07:00i'm your manbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-16293793833144773632010-08-10T11:19:00.000-07:002010-08-11T08:46:36.442-07:00buckle up
there's a yappy 6am dog. there's the long adjustment of new house. there's a overly concerned neighbor fretting about flora crossing property lines. there's boxes yet unpacked. there's a memoir about a brain tumor that has to be worked on daily to get to target date. there's the newness of landlord-ing. there's a video project that looks great in application but won't export properly which bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-65573870160577741382010-08-03T11:22:00.000-07:002010-08-04T11:07:46.552-07:00upcoming screening
latest short film is done, screening soon, come if you can
you can read about the film's inception and execution at (one of) my other blog(s):
h e r ebphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-31042780150595324942010-07-28T17:02:00.000-07:002010-07-28T17:02:19.755-07:00lessons
1) in matters of home projects, always double the budget
2) in matters of home projects peripherally or directly connected to ikea, always double the projected time allotment and frustration margin allotment
3) stay hydrated
4) temporary pain for long-term joy
5) realize that #4 is just something you tell yourself to get to the end
6) if there is a sliver of doubt, step aside, hire a bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-48053037089729915992010-07-22T11:39:00.001-07:002010-07-22T12:37:57.888-07:00nervous lennie
we had to put LB on the back porch at new place while the piano delivery came. he no likeybphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-15779610099412258942010-07-19T15:39:00.000-07:002010-07-19T16:01:03.621-07:00wknd in thumbnailstarting this on thurs evening, so as to include: the screening of metropolis at Cinema 21, which was dizzying and awe-inspiring and which sent us and our 3 companions into a discussion that spanned art, movement, cinema, music, narrative, history and which stretched past 4 hours and which combined with copious champagne, left me flattened on friday. but pretty much in the best way possible...bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-85532579135422185272010-07-07T12:39:00.000-07:002010-07-07T12:39:21.091-07:00move, change
processes of subtraction and reduction have been underway for some time, reaching highest point this past wknd, moving out of one house and into another. to be sure it engenders chaos and exhaution in varying degrees. the process forces contemplation of items, some long un-contemplated, and their worth, obvious or implicit. And it birthes a question: is the remainder what defines you or is the bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-51115633511770663782010-06-30T13:00:00.000-07:002010-06-30T17:46:39.897-07:00gloomy planetsbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-75423995842010770572010-06-25T12:50:00.000-07:002010-06-25T12:50:40.611-07:00too many blogsthis is partly due to enterprise but mostly due to sitting: i have multiple blogs. too many. so, rather than trim and subtract, i made a new one. pretty self-explanatory i think but please feel free to follow, comment or ignore as suits your tastes.
h e r e bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-61964791227930839952010-06-18T18:24:00.001-07:002010-06-18T18:24:24.944-07:00fridaybphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-78075721312007202702010-06-15T11:32:00.000-07:002010-06-17T10:23:20.169-07:00one more time around the sun'yesterday it was my birthday, i hung one more year on the line'. so goes a song lyric. here's what happened:
woke up and ran up to the mt tabor reservoir. it was my first time running in several weeks (was sick, then busy, then sick and busy). felt important to mark the day w/ a run because i can. i thought of my 5 birthdays since diagnosis and i ran a little bit harder. i thought of those bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-61006374592348876962010-06-08T10:21:00.001-07:002010-06-08T10:21:24.917-07:00you, the livingbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-17338196673583643652010-06-07T13:20:00.000-07:002010-06-07T13:20:15.003-07:00fri/satkeep going back and forth on whether this is a source of pride or shame but: friday evening m was in seattle visiting her dad (who happened to be in town for convention) and i managed to get in 5 movies within 20 hours. i took breaks for eating and sleeping. the first one i saw at the nw film center (and it ruled) and the rest i saw at home (read: laying prone on the couch): head-on, a.i., bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-31748401932901953952010-06-04T13:10:00.000-07:002010-06-04T13:10:59.086-07:00The Gardenmanaged to get a couple of my summer project movies (see below) in in the past couple days. about one the less said the better, but as for the other: wow. Scott Hamilton Kennedy's The Garden, is perhaps one of the more gripping, tense, heartfelt, soaring films i've come across of late, a documentary somehow managing to be about life, death, race, politics, industry, media, celebrity and at bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-8999736938879254732010-06-02T11:51:00.000-07:002010-06-02T11:51:20.174-07:00L'Intrus, etcso there's about 115 movies on the summer project list (see below). this culled from sight & sound, and film comment and other sources but w/o getting too academic about it: stuff i keep meaning to see. the pool gets bigger by the day so this is a preventive measure akin to emptying a lake with a spoon. i'm going to see as many as possible by labor day wknd and chatter briefly about them if/when bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-8788776416670129302010-06-01T13:35:00.000-07:002010-07-15T12:36:26.516-07:00s u m m e r /p r o j e c ttitle/director/seen
12:08 East of Bucharest Corneliu Porumboiu 13 Lakes James Benning 2046 Wong Kar Wai 24 City Zhang Ke Jia 35 Shots of Rum Claire Denis A.I Steven Spielberg Antichrist Lars von Trier Audition Takishi Miike Black Book Paul Verhoeven Black Girl Ousmane Sembene Blissfully Yours
Apichatpong Weerasethakul Bluebeard Catherine Breillat Café Lumiere Hsiao-hsien Hou Chocolat Claire bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-10827035101952238852010-05-31T21:12:00.000-07:002010-05-31T21:12:18.820-07:00the great purge
b e f o r e
a f t e rbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-38464062097404267452010-05-27T11:37:00.001-07:002010-05-27T11:37:47.350-07:00mother
saw this on saturday and haven't stopped thinking about it. genre but perfectly executed. amazing last 5 minutes.bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-38128762003235014172010-05-17T10:49:00.000-07:002010-05-21T15:18:51.195-07:00strange convergence/shad a lot of cassavetes on the mind lately - firstly in just sort of a generalized man-making-a-movie-on-his-terms thing which i admire to no end (even if i don't love the films themselves) but more specifically: i'm currently reading marshall fine's (overly) adulatory 'accidental genius', watched 'husbands' last week (which i did not care for) and 'minnie and moskowitz' (which i liked a lot). inbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-69079399232283877782010-05-17T10:21:00.000-07:002010-05-17T10:26:20.063-07:00wknd, moviesmanaged to get 6 movies in this wknd. oh glory and beauteousness!
'field guide for november days' at nw film ctr. shot and directed by local
filmmaker nick peterson. among its merits the production was shot nearly all by bicycle - yes an incredibly portland-y notion - and features local actor and musician joe haege who (shameless plug) wrote a song for my latest short film (which is done!) bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-72005392588702266552010-05-11T16:40:00.000-07:002010-05-11T16:42:12.596-07:00last day of mercury retrogrademm is away this wk at a writing residency (you can follow her exploits here) which means it's great week for me to lay on the couch and watch a lot of movies. i've been going at a noble clip if i do say so (see below for one example). still the absence of one person can upend the daily routine a bit - the wake times, the dog walks, the meals, the cleanliness, you get the idea - and i came to bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-76550785146156665402010-05-03T16:13:00.000-07:002010-05-03T16:13:31.375-07:00doves and crocodilesWalter Murch: "Three Fathers of Cinema" from Old School Cinema on Vimeo.the great walter murch discusses the 18th century confluence of realism in literature and dynamism in music - two rivers joining to create cinema.
a bit on the longer side but it's worth a look.bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-4460736825527612642010-05-03T08:07:00.001-07:002010-05-03T08:07:41.786-07:00gavotte in c minor, js bachbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-61550034065258230362010-04-29T12:25:00.000-07:002010-04-29T12:25:35.761-07:00in the dream-state...from my dinner with andre (1981, dir louis malle)
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-62096325238776046722010-04-28T17:30:00.000-07:002010-04-28T17:33:25.061-07:00sun, the
from nasa's solar dynamics observatory (sdo)
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-52356814449487880302010-04-26T07:46:00.001-07:002010-04-26T07:46:59.754-07:00bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-59748053891273971102010-04-23T11:45:00.000-07:002010-04-23T11:48:48.415-07:00speech
the above is from david foster wallace's speech to graduates at kenyon college in 2005. it's been floating around for awhile but i never read it all the way thru until yesterday. and i haven't stopped thinking about it since. sometimes interior matters are addressed in an abstract manner (ie, do good, think peacefully etc) that, for me anyway, goes out the window at the first signs of actual bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-85219869397905642952010-04-14T13:05:00.000-07:002010-04-14T13:06:46.060-07:00home, sickspent the past 2 days at home, nursing some mild affliction of unknown origin. along w/ sore throat and achey limbs, i found myself trapped in some strange area of nostalgia for days past, pining/aching for long ago corridors of college. i know this only underscores my age and the distance between then and now but i felt it all the same. not certain what brought it on but it led me to re-watch bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-19934887601573724072010-04-12T00:14:00.000-07:002010-04-12T00:16:17.160-07:00father/son kayak tripbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-63249528627502779752010-04-09T11:13:00.000-07:002010-04-09T11:13:43.334-07:00when the cat's away......the mouse will eat pizza for dinner and breakfast, will leave dishes untouched and not fret, will clean up the dog's errant evacuations, will lay on the couch watching bela tarr's werckmeister harmonies - a film comprised of 39 unbroken shots (some, like the below, in the 8-10 min range), will lay on the couch watching james gray's debut little odessa, will lay on the couch finally seeing bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-91043232448196131402010-04-06T17:25:00.000-07:002010-04-07T10:22:26.613-07:00untitled postbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-28033177068447935142010-04-04T15:08:00.000-07:002010-04-04T15:08:33.053-07:00oregon coast
spent wknd here w/ family, 2 dogs, as epic storm/s pounded.bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-91516967488008675902010-03-29T11:19:00.000-07:002010-03-29T17:46:33.412-07:00five year eye-blinkThe me of 5 yrs ago, at this very moment i type, was laying in an ICU bed, hooked to machines, drainage sacs filling slowly at my neck, a jigsaw swath cut across my head, wondering where i'd be in 5 days much less 5 years, thoughts of the future reduced by brain tumor to small bits, all durations now measured by the length of time to the next medical event: the next treatment, the next doctor bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-25595129718231602782010-03-25T12:25:00.000-07:002010-03-25T12:26:53.537-07:00take as long as it takesRS: How long was the edit?
LH: Just under two years. I had a cut ready for the 2007 Sundance deadline and I was about submit it, but I didn’t feel strongly that it was the film I wanted to present. A friend of mine said to me: “Don’t show anybody anything until it’s perfect. Take as long as it takes. You only get one chance.” Those words were looming large at that time, so I decided to pull backbphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-5785158075683168642010-03-23T16:57:00.000-07:002010-03-23T17:40:39.824-07:00"i always make you punks talk"
from 'on dangerous ground', dir. nicholas ray, 1952bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-5057620877778535812010-03-22T12:22:00.000-07:002010-03-22T12:22:41.819-07:00spring cleaningone of those wknds: car returned to our clutches on friday. we park it on the street instead of our driveway b/c the street is better-lit...we watch 'hunger' friday night and as a result spend saturday am on internet learning about the ira and ulsterism and the 6 disputed counties of northern ireland...saturday AM i go for a run, m goes up mt tabor...we get bad news from a friend...we begin bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-67653007114665611882010-03-15T12:48:00.000-07:002010-03-15T12:49:38.300-07:00my sistermy amazing, lovely, courageous sister continues to inspire me. here's a video i shot for her this wknd to help her as she tries to get on 'the biggest loser'. send her your good thoughts and support. i love you sis.
xo
bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-78051247616378443802010-03-15T12:02:00.000-07:002010-03-15T12:02:46.724-07:00...we've been selected in this beautiful lottery...
it is of utmost importance to remain grateful, to recall the finite nature of breath intake, the ticking clock that tocks as you're sitting here. It is imperative to recall this when the mechanics of daily life intercede, say, when you go to pick up a pharmacy order that was a week late in arriving - despite info to the contrary - and you're told that the cost has tripled for no reason and is bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-88537484139786148322010-03-09T17:54:00.000-08:002010-03-09T17:54:58.720-08:00oscars, thehistoric year this was, not merely b/c of kathryn bigelow's win but b/c it was the 1st yr in, oh, 13 plus years that m and i did not host an oscar party (sorry coco!). next year we'll be back. meantime, enjoy this bounty of assorted thoughts:
-i have yet to see avatar and i didn't love hurt locker per se but i was so thrilled to have the latter best the former. a resounding win for the little bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-45638753367321180702010-03-08T11:29:00.000-08:002010-03-08T11:35:08.338-08:00wknd in thumbnailfriday morning, i go to kaiser to pick up prescription that according to automated response would be ready the previous day. not there. come back at 4pm they say but i have to work so i'll get it on monday...friday night we see The 39 Steps at PCS and stay out way late talking w/ dear friend about acting, cinema, life etc. We don't pull into our driveway until 130 am. We stay up late and drink bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-3623471948908291752010-03-06T22:57:00.000-08:002010-03-06T22:58:40.490-08:00another blog!Endings and Beginnings people. Doors slam shut and windows present themselves open, just enough, for you to slither through. All by way of saying:
You will be (dis)heartened to know that i am discontinuing the Sentence of the Day feature, on this blog anyway. Should you want to revisit all the glorious pearls that have been documented thusly you can still search by tags on this blog or you can bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1213034239813245456.post-49379120164735371012010-03-05T10:28:00.000-08:002010-03-05T16:41:51.418-08:00recently seen
ever since reading 'red harvest' a few wks ago i've been on a film noir tear. some highlights:
the asphalt jungle, the killers (1946), doa (1949), i wake up screaming, in a lonely place, the third man, murder my sweet, thieves highway, the naked city, night and the city, detour, drunken angel, the big sleep, the big heat, the line-up, the sniper, murder by contract, blast of silence
this is bphttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05806223047453147976noreply@blogger.com0