7.30.2009

sick zine

went to reading frenzy last wk for a reading for this zine. while it covers a broad range of illness and distinct points along the journey for each writer - fear, anger, despair, levity etc - there is a magnificent almost cosmic unity in the telling. Illness is a shared language, transcending the reductive boundaries of race, class, age. Put another way: fucking incredible, fuck yes.

go buy it at reading frenzy
it's 5 bucks

or here
or here

7.27.2009

wknd in thumbnail

not in chronologic order:

french fries and crepe for dinner, jazz trio at the press club, summer hours, moon, nighttime bike-ride, division street fair, every little step, 4 mile walk w/ parents, cleaning house, oversleeping during nap and missing jaw festival, reeling from seeing summer hours, hellish drive to hillsboro, warm pita slices and hummus glop for dinner, amazing outdoor performance of romeo & juliet, beers w/ brothers sipes in alleyway, reeling from every little step, training dog during private lesson, reeling from wknd

7.21.2009

from dc trip

finally going thru our footage from the inauguration trip in january. found this nugget. yes.

video

7.18.2009

audio/video

video

mm got me a fancypancy imac for my bday last month which means - among many other things - that i can stop using windows movie maker to throw together tiny video clips.

me using windows movie maker, as mm has heard me allege is akin to a gorilla wearing boxing gloves trying to fold origami.

anyway, i'm finally getting around to exploring the imac in earnest. here's a very quick spin in imovie w/ random yachats footage

ordet (1955)

sentence of the day 7.17.09



"Should I follow that dump truck?"

bp to mm, driving

runner-up;



"It had a certain irreality, if that's a word"

mm to bp

7.17.2009

sentence of the day 7.17.09


"I brought this by accident; I'll leave it on the table"

mm to bp, regarding the roll-on deodorant she had in haste
taken to the car and was applying, all while running from car (engine on) to the outside table in the backyard to set deodorant down before darting back to the car and screeching away

7.11.2009

testing new scanner...

w/ amazing words from haskell wexler

the briefest window of time



not quite sure how i've made it to 37 yrs old w/o once ever seeing agnes varda's cleo 5 to 7 but that was corrected last night at the nw film center. despite a late arrival which had us in the front row, straining backs and necks, and despite the air temp which was hovering around the 'arctic blast' setting, i was transfixed, mesmerized. The film is about - this gives nothing away really - 2 hrs in a parisian woman's life as she waits for the results of an oncologic test. Setting aside all the technical and musical and acting choices that make this film so stunning (if it's even possible to extract them to consider a lone element of an artwork) the concept alone speaks to my soul. Well, no not the concept, let's say something that operates at that particular frequency - the endless fusion of life and death. Living in the face of impending certain oblivion, which admittedly we are all doing - me as i type this, you as you read it - but living here not the mere intake of breath, or the mere contemplation of the oblivion, i mean, yes it can contain those things but it's something else. not living in spite of death really but maybe living because of death, if the distinction is clear. honoring and acknowledging what's coming and not blocking it but rushing in headlong. granted, this is an easier concept to swallow when you're not waiting to hear if you're toting around a terminal cancer, which is to say, that even thinking like this is a sort of luxury that those unexposed to life-threatening trauma (not that it has to be illness either) don't even know that they are luxuriating in. When the gun is to your head you do not at first contemplate the vagaries and beauties of living and the quick, shimmering collection of moments your life is...

...but i guess also you do. You understand it at some molecular level at that instant but not in a practicable or transferrable way - after all your life hinges on the next treatment, surgery, recovery, diagnosis, assessment, prognosis. After clearing those hurdles, maybe years later, you may find yourself sitting somewhere stuck in traffic, thinking about student loans, what to have for dinner and those gun at the temple memories are like wandering ghosts - full of power but non-material, wisps of smoke - and how are you to incorporate their teachings? Maybe the gun at the temple was anomalous not transformative? Maybe the reality is what is right here, in the room with you, the traffic in your lane, the daily frustrations and the ghosts are merely your own personal private reserve of memory? Moving further on you start to glean that it's not either but both.

In any case, while the film was a grand and perfect illustration of the power of art for me the following bit was overheard outside afterward: "...i guess i'm more of a hollywood in the 40's film noir person than french new wave. i mean, i liked it but about 30 minutes in i could have left and had dinner. i mean, it was cute...."

there are many terms you could apply to a french new wave film that happens to embody life and death and fragile beauty of youth but i can think of none more dismissive or idiotic than 'cute'. Of course if you're not attuned to particular frequencies you're not going to receive the signal. This has nothing to do w/ cinematic intelligence or acumen and everything to do with the luxury i mentioned earlier, a life free of trauma at least to date, a luxury that at one point we all get and a luxury that we all invariably lose.

sentence of the day 7.10.09


"Remind my memory"

bp to mm over cocktails

7.08.2009

sentence of the day 7.8.09



"If I was the kind of person who head-butted people, I'd head-butt you right now"

mm to bp after a perceived slight

7.07.2009

nebulaic fireworks



new pic of the helix nebula.

"...Unlike real fireworks, the scene in the Helix Nebula involves no explosion. Rather, as a sun-like star ages, it ejects material in stages over tens of millions of years. A wind of charged particles continues to flow from the aged star, and the wind runs into the previously ejected layers, creating shock waves. Radiation from the star ionizes atoms in these outward-racing crash sites. Tiny particles are forced together and emit light. The knots might be remnants of planets that once existed around the star, astronomers figure. Or perhaps they involve material ejected from the star at some stage in its life. Nobody knows..."

7.03.2009

before and after

got the idea from m's dw cohort kathleen (sp) who apparently has the same arrangement, ie a chromatic structuring. felt appropriate.

7.01.2009

sentence of the day 6.30.09



"we'll have to smell them all"

mm on the 3 bottles of capers in the fridge
after she was reminded that the 4th (she'd just
purchased) was completely unnecessary and after she
insisted that not all the current bottles would
be tenable