...we've been selected in this beautiful lottery...

it is of utmost importance to remain grateful, to recall the finite nature of breath intake, the ticking clock that tocks as you're sitting here. It is imperative to recall this when the mechanics of daily life intercede, say, when you go to pick up a pharmacy order that was a week late in arriving - despite info to the contrary - and you're told that the cost has tripled for no reason and is now so pricey that you cannot afford it so you have to tell them to send it back or, say, when moments thereafter you go to pick up your freshly-repaired car at the mechanics b/c they fixed the steering column and shaft after thieves took the car from your driveway last week and you start the car and it doesn't sound right so you look under the hood and there's smoke and radiator fluid 'coming thru the seam' so you have to leave the car there and get back in touch with the insurance company to alert them that the thieves screwed up the engine as well. these are moments when frustration, anger rise familiarly but you have to beat them back. it is a gift to stand here. you are lucky to be breathing.